I’m going to try an experiment. I’m going to password-protect posts (some, not all, and for now I think just future posts, not back posts). I’ve been having so much trouble figuring out how to write in this space now, with my gaze shifting from myself more to the world, and with other things going on that are not necessarily easy to write about in the public gaze. I’ve been getting more and more open here about my real-world identity, have been sharing this blog’s existence more and more with people in my real-world life, and because of that I’ve been continuing to feel more and more like I don’t know how to approach this space anymore. I know I sound like a broken record; I’ve been repeating that same thing for months now, in every post. But I think password-protecting might help, might make this space feel less exposed.
Let me be clear, though: this is mostly just a psychological trick I’d like to play on myself. I have no intention of excluding anyone at all from reading, and I ask only that you send me an email (alphafemmesf at gmail dot com) or comment on this post if you would like the password, and I will be *more* than happy to send it along. In fact I will be excited to have folks ask for the password – it will mean that somehow, y’all are still interested :)
So, in the next day or two (probably today), I will be posting two things:
- a password-protected post with what’s going on in my life lately (teasers: summer plans, ongoings in my relationship, navigating our peculiar brand of non-monogamy, family happenings, grad school, sexxx…)
- real-life photos of me! with my face! and: they are pin-up photos, so they are hot ;)